Andrew's Journal

same old shit different day

Thu, 26 Feb 2004 20:22:31 GMT

so sick of the same old shit. nothing new every happens. every day it is some argument with some one. it is never ending drama. it is either things at home or with alina or just some other bull shit. i have a hard enough time not smoking pot and cigs. i guess i am just getting tired and don't want to do anything any more. mabey i am just depressed. ok so i am just rambling. here is what is going on. i am having a hard time because i am tring to quit smoking cigs and not doing a very good job. also i quit smoking pot about 2 weeks ago. i have smoke once seince i quit but i still want to get high all the time. i don't understand why it has to be so fucking hard for me. my parents are a whole nother story. i argue with rebecca every fucking time i talk to her. she is really getting on my nerves. she just thinks i am a fuck up. i am trying really hard to get my life straightened out but i am having a really hard time. all the signs say i should move out again. but when i live on my own i always go back to drugs. i am just confused.

haven't posted in forever

Thu, 22 Jan 2004 03:36:41 GMT

nothing is new

back online

Sun, 21 Sep 2003 17:18:44 GMT

yeah i now have the internet. it is weird how being online just feels like a whole world is at your finger tips... but you really can't see it untill it is taken away. anyway... i have cable modem. soooo nice. it is awsome. anyways bellingham is good having fun. i work construction now... i install mobile homes. it is prtty cool. all my co-workers smoke pot all the time so the job site is really chill.alina and i are good. life is just good. later.

well... it is almost time to depart from vancouver

Fri, 11 Jul 2003 18:50:38 GMT

I have an apartment... i have moving arangements... i almost have a move in date... i gave my 2-week notic at work.. it is set. it is scary and exciting all at the same time.

I have an apartment

Wed, 09 Jul 2003 15:49:00 GMT

So i went to bellingham looking for jobs and apartments with alina. little did we know that we would rent an apartment and sign a one year lease. crazy. i move out of vancouver in a week. the apartment is so nice. it is big and it has a kitchen with a full size fridge and a gas stove. All the utilities are $40 a month. thats it... the bedroom is pretty big and really nice. but my favorite part is the living room. it is so hill. you all have to come up and see it... the apartment is in the corner of a building so it has a ton of windows. One of them is a nice bay window... i'm so excited. i am also scared cuz vancouver is my comfort zone. but change is good. i am happy!

i got a tv

Fri, 27 Jun 2003 00:33:02 GMT

getting a tv... quite the adventure

so i wanted a tv...

i went to vidio only in jancen beach...
the first tv i looked at i wanted...
alina convinced me that i should look other places...
went to circut city...
couldn't find anything...
went back to vidio only...
couldn't get sevice...
alina and my sister got pissed and walked out...
i stayed and calmly waited like a bitch...
i finally got help after 30 minutes of waiting...
only to find out that the tv i wanted was out of stock...
i was upset...
so i went to toys-r-us...
had fun...
i was determined to find a tv...
so i went to the mall...
went to sears and found a good tv for cheaper...
bought it...
i ended up with a 20 inch flat screen fo $160...
i am happy now.

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Wed, 25 Jun 2003 17:46:46 GMT

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not quite right

Wed, 25 Jun 2003 17:41:54 GMT

i'm not sure what is wrong with me but i don't feel quite right. it is not a feeling that is bad enough to do something about but it is always there... it is a feeling that sits in the back of my head and sits there nagging at my brain... things are going alright with alina so it is not that.... i think it is because i am under alot of stress... work, and my parents, and my sister, and my girlfriend, and my friends, and money, and bellingham, and just plain every day life... that right there is enough. i am tired... i haven't been sleeping enough. I just need a break to just rest... everythink is so bittersweet... mabey i should spend some time alone... but if i spend time alone i will just want to be with other people. if i am with people i am going fast and i can't focus on any of my problems... it all comes down to beign out of ballance. I need to ballence my alone time with my scocial time. mabey it would be good for alina and i to spend some time apart? I don't really know what to do... all i know is tht i really am tired and sick of having this feeling i my brain... some time alone to think is just want i need.

this it terrible...

Wed, 25 Jun 2003 16:01:10 GMT

alright here is the real one

Sat, 21 Jun 2003 22:47:20 GMT

android7
Magic Number	18
Job	Criminal
Personality	Slacker
Temperament	All Bark, No Bite
Sexual	Gay
Likely To Win	A Home Help Badge
Me - In A Word	Devious
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more friends are good

Sat, 21 Jun 2003 22:09:50 GMT

I just got my friend marcee a live journal... her LJ name is MarceeCamp Talk to her add her to your friends... i went to boarding school with her and she lives here in vancouver... she is cool. happy writhing byb.

hehe porn star

Sat, 21 Jun 2003 21:48:33 GMT

whats an lj
Magic Number	10
Job	Porn Star
Personality	The Glass Is Half-Full!
Temperament	Steely
Sexual	Whatever, Whenever, Whoever
Likely To Win	A Home Help Badge
Me - In A Word	Chinny
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Sat, 21 Jun 2003 17:07:21 GMT

yeah this is intresting





	
	
	
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another family argument...

Sat, 21 Jun 2003 17:04:07 GMT

so alina and i finally got caught.my dad found out that she spent the night last night. he was pissed. then he made it all about other things... he pretty much thinks it is a bad idea to go to bellingham. he thinks that i will regret everything about it... he told me that i am being dumb and that i am thinking with my dick... that pissed me off so much.. it hurt too. i really care about alina... i can tell the difference between my emotions. thinking and my dick. i have been in tharapy seince i was 7. not to mention boarding school. he is just afraid that i will end up like him. he ran away with my mom. she became an alcohalic and commited suiside. fuck him...

on the other hand my mother was just the oposit. she told me that if i want their support that i should just show how i was going to make it. write it out... how much i am going to spend on each thing. and then see if i can support myself on minumum wage. i think that it is a good aproch.. she is generaly mean.but she was very understanding and nice about everything. it was really nice. so i am going to figure out someway to make it work in bellingham... i will write it all out to make my parents happy. i guess i am just hurt by what my dad said this mornning. it is hard to tell if he is being at all realistc or if he is just being pesamistic. wheatever.

My job is a joke and everyone knows it...

Sat, 21 Jun 2003 00:45:58 GMT

there is not enough work for me to do all the time at the shop... i get everything i need to done and i still have time to slack off. then i get scolded for being a slacker... i think when i actualy get a "real" job i need something with alot more structure. mabey some thing with physical labor... i like going home and feeling like i accomplished something... i really don't like retail... i know that much... what do you do when you are not helping people... it is hgard to stay motivated in that kind of environment... i could do a job where it was just dealing with people... like being a tela-marketer or something but that is a constant thing... really structured... i guess the whiole point is that i need structure in a job and i don't have that right now. oh well i will create my own and live with it... i will not be here very much longer anyway.

the conclution

Thu, 19 Jun 2003 15:33:39 GMT

So the whole bellingham delema... so what i think i am going to do is go to belling ham... get a full time job and hold off on college for a year... then i will have some moneyu saved up for the next year. then i will go to whatcom the next 2 years and get my associates in arts and science... then move on to western and bet my bachlors in fine arts and take a bunch of phycology classes... from there i might take a year off before attending a school where i can get my masters in art therapy... there are a few choices of schools but the best ones at this point are this one in cali and marylhurst... that is my grand plan... we will see what happens... first thing is first. find a job. i'm just happy to feel resolved.

wow... life really sucks right now...

Wed, 18 Jun 2003 18:38:18 GMT

so the graduation party sucked... i drank... was sick the whole time... jeff brought annoying people that we stupid and loud... the best part was going on a walk... the other best part was smoking cigs... (yeah it was that bad.)

i finally find love... now i might have to seperate. do i go with alina to bellingham or think about my future. I would like to get in to art therapy... i can get my masters in art therapy right here in portland at marylhurst in just 6 years... i could go to another college and get my bachlors of art and take a bunch of phycology classes. but i really want to be with alina... am i willing to give up love which i might never find again... or do i plan for the future. what if alina and i don't work and i haven't set up my future and i get screwed. What if i never find love and i never have the family that i have alwayes dreamed of.i would marry alina without thinking twice... i don't know what to do... everyone says something different... every one wants me to do something different. i don't know what i want for myself... i hate this

So this whole LJ match thing?

Thu, 12 Jun 2003 17:55:25 GMT





	
	
	
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Fun Fun Fun...

Wed, 11 Jun 2003 15:29:35 GMT

So my parents go out of town again today... i have the whole house to myself from 2:00 wednesday (today) untill sunday afternoon. so... if anyone wants to come over... get away... have a little fun... you are more than welcomed to come chill at my place.

Fri, 06 Jun 2003 20:34:53 GMT

How can anyone be expected to work hard when the weather is like this... for 2 reasons... first of all it is so hot i can't even think much less work... and i just want to be outside... spending time w/ my friends... swimming... anything but sitting around sweating. Ahhhhh, everyone else is probibly out having a good friday afternoon. i am at work... everyone should feel sorry for me...

the medication saga continues

Fri, 06 Jun 2003 18:11:36 GMT

So i haven't been taking my meds for about 4 months now... my parents notice that i haven't been taking them about every couple months... Every time there is a big argument about how i have to take them... Then i lie and say 9i am taking them... then we go another couple months and do the same thing again. well my dad noticed again. Yeah. this could be good or bad. i think it shouldn't be that big of a deal this time. i am just going to lie and not try to fight it... The ting is the meds help me in a few very small situations... is it worth it to take some thang that alters my personality to help me out in a couuple situyations that i can deal with myself. i don't think so.. i just how that this just blows over.
i guess it isn't worth getting upset about. well, alina is bringing me chinese food do i gotta go bye...

another day in the life...

Wed, 04 Jun 2003 17:46:24 GMT

Yesterday was good. i went on a hike with alysn. we went to this waterfall... i would say which one but i have no idea how to spell it...
then i went home and alina and i zipped my sleeping bags together and layed out in my hammock in my yaed and looked at the stars... it was very romantic. i liked it. got no plans for today but i don't think i could have bad day... the weather is fabulous. good for swimming.

life at it's best

Tue, 03 Jun 2003 20:55:02 GMT

life is just good... the wether... the people... everything. i have been just hanging out. my future is looking good. i am looking forward to moving to bellingham in the fall. I have the best girlfriend in the whole world. i have friends all over the US who call mne all the time. I get letters from my friends at boarding school. life is just good.

Spinach Dip!?

Sat, 31 May 2003 19:19:43 GMT

So the other day i was running around with alina.(what else is new...) i went to safe way to buy some spinach dip for my lunch. So i went in the store... picked out the kind i wanted... and payed for it happily... i ran out of the store suinging it like a beautiful happy child. thirlled to have something good for lunch... and the bag ripped. the spinach dip went flying out of the bag. it hit the concrete like an anvil and splatered all over the parking lot. then it continued to slide across the parking lot for about 20 feet. i thought i was going to cry. alina sat there and laughed at me as i sat there with a stupid look on my face. Alina says the look was priceless.i got in the car and drove off uphappy because my lunch was all over the parking lot

life...

Thu, 29 May 2003 22:59:17 GMT

work is good... friends are good... love life is good... i am just good. I have been just living. time is just flying by. i have been really busy it seems. but it is not a bad thing because it is all things that i like to do. It is pretty cool. i have gotten in a few more arguments with alina.i am really starting to see where we are going to have to work at our relationship. this is not a bad thing. all relationships need work. i just know where it is going to have to happen. i have been hanging out with krystal alot more lately. i really like hanging out with her. she is cool. I also like her boy max. he is alot of fun. I had fun hanging with ian and alysn last night. It is nice to spend time with them. We don't hang enough. I always feel like there is some sort of resistance when we all get together. I really with that wasn't there but it is so we will figure something out. that is pretty much my life. oh i really hate alina's mom. she makes alina really miserable. I like alina when she is happy and it really sucks to see her all upset. I just want to remove her from all that bull shit. i guess i can't wait to go to bellingham. That way i don't have to have her sneeking around my house. we can just wake up and not have to wisper. But for right now she either sneeks around my house or is miserable at her house. it is a pretty fucked up situation. Although i like having her spend the night. waking up with her feels so good. I love it. god... life is just to much. well thats it. till next time.

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